easily controllable with caffeine, codeine
Pain and nausea tick-tock every second. Medication cuts me loose, banging through time like a bumper car until I wake up sticky and disoriented.
And years have passed. Or at least the afternoon.
It's not a good idea to drill a hole in your skull. But sometimes I wonder how it would feel. They just let the air in and then it's all perfectly natural. When I first read Hills Like White Elephants, I thought they were discussing trepanation.
I might not be awake yet. You might not be real. Did you ever think of that?
All questions will be answered, all fears will be allayed.