I am supposed to doing some rather boring work right now and I'm going do it, in just a minute, but all I can think about is the story I'm working on. Not every story grabs me like this. Some I just want to write because they're interesting. But sometimes I have to write and then it can be difficult to concentrate on anything else.
For a light and funny story -- parody, crack, etc -- I usually get an excited rush. I'm jittery and even breathless. And very happy. Especially in the first flush of a good idea. The lightning strike really good idea sometimes makes me cry.
With a serious story, like the one that's eating me now, I feel a heaviness in my chest that's almost like a pain. And it stays there until the story is written. (Or put off for too long.) Even though the actual act of writing isn't much fun, learning the story and building it is so satisfying.
How do stories or other works grab you and demand to be created? Is it a physical sensation? Do some stories ride you and others leave you alone?
Coincidentally, if it's porn I want to write, that's physical also. If I have any kind of sex before I write the genius porn, I lose my mojo.
tmi, but there you have it. :)
As a vidder, the urge to create is in some ways more intellectual than physical (no tingly bits), but the most exciting vid ideas still come with a rush, where the heart beats faster and the thoughts flow more quickly. The emotional component is there, as well, and with good vid ideas (unlike my stories) I get surges of pure pride at being so awesome. (: But because vidding requires a lot of steps before you can actually get to the cutting, though, it's very rare to sustain that physical and emotional push throughout the process. I generally feel it most keenly sometime during the "humus" phase of vid development: after having the song + fandom + concept brainwave, but before I've got it firmed up enough to start ripping source.
The two fics I'm currently writing feel like that. I get all gleeful while writing them, even if it's coming out slow. Another fic that's currently forming in my head is also showing the same signs.
I keep thinking this is rather insane and very ironic because I was considering giving up fanfic completely before I fell headfirst into Tenipuri. I have much to be grateful for in this fandom.
When I need to write something, I feel that nagging, longing ache, like wanting the last piece of pie in the refrigerator. The feeling always comes in fits and starts, though, sometimes weeks apart, and usually directly proportionate to how able I am at that moment to drop everything and write.
I had a story totally eat me alive once. I got the idea and spend the next three quite busy days thinking about it whenever I wasn't thoroughly occupied with something else, until I finally got on an airplane and wrote like a demon on the plane. (That one died in revision too. One of these days I should resurrect some of the stuff that's old enough that I've forgotten most of the original theoretical revision anyway, and poke at them with pointy sticks to see what they do.)
Ah, yes, me too!
they'll leave me horny for weeksi suffer.Recently, I listened to Kiss's "Because I'm a Girl" PV (with translation) and I went and continued writing this fic I've started. *was very productive* So I'm listening to it in loop until it wears off. Hopefully I'll get another few pages out before that happens.
So for me, it's usually a feeling. If it's a song that created that feeling, I'd play it in loop for hours and write. I should really note down all the songs I've listened to but... XD;;
Some long stories I can finish in a short period of time if I'm motivated enough. Other leave me, but I eventually get back to it. Of course shorter fics, I can finish in a couple of sittings, or a couple of hours.
[/non-sensical'ness] I'm randomly tired from work. >.>
Others lie in wait until I'm completely absorbed in something else, then slide into my lap and seduce me, until nothing will do but to give in and write, let all come as it will, and drop, panting, at the end, happy and loved.
Still others arrive one day with their orders, ma'am, and are there marching 'long beside me every day until suddenly their tour is over and the story is done.
None of my chapter fics are up anywhere, but there's short stuff up at
Other times, I just have to work on it and hope the fun turns up somewhere.
FYI...
With short, quickly-written ideas I get very excited and can actually sit down and write someting in an hour, or a day (depending on length). With longer or more complex story ideas it's like a constant pressure at the back of my head, especially those I *know* I have no time for and postpone. There are ideas that can haunt me for years, and the niggling only lets up once I sit down to start. Weirdly enough, as soon as I've started to write, the pressure goes away, even if I stop and let it rest for months... as if the bunny is kind of *exorcised* then (because once I start a fic, it usually gets finished, even if it takes years).
The most persistent kind of bunny I get when the idea hits me either as a dream or immediately after waking up - those mostly consist of an image/scene, and usually won't let go unless they're written - very annoying, but usually they write itself rather fast.
Writing is tedious job, I'd screw things up if I were to write in an endorphin rush. When I have time, I write, and usually go by the music or general mood point at the moment.